The Loss

-By Ish

Fearful right?

Fear of again going through everything all over again, facing that pain that loneliness again. Thoughts of those sleepless nights and those haunting memories, the time when minutes seemed like hours which once again makes you go through all what had  happened a long time ago. Every dark memory becomes  fresh as if it was yesterday when it all took place.

Don't  fear! You have moved on! Now no one can make you go through that situation again. No blame games would work. No one matters except you. Just don't give a fuck.

You are not changed by love, you are changed by the pain after love  but this new you is a better version. "The world is mean" they will always try to use you and this side of yours is capable of fighting anything.

See, Think, and Relax....

Its not always important to think about everyone. It's okay to put yourself first. It's your life, you can kick people or things out if your peace is at stake. Removing  every toxic  thing from your life which grabs you  back into the past, which again brings the same negative state of mind, is not selfish. You don't need to explain, you know what you did.

And the most important, don't  crave for the old you , I know you miss "her" (the old one), you miss every bit of her, but remember that pure soul didn't  belong here, she was not strong enough to handle the tactics of this  cruel world. You needed to change and you know that dark past helped you to do that, it made you better.

Stop being unhappy with yourself. You are perfect. Stop wishing you were someone else or wishing people liked you as much as they like someone else, stop trying to get attention from those who hurt you. Stop hating your body, your face ,your personality, your qwirks, love them, without those you wouldn't  be you. SMILE! It draws people in, if anyone hates you because you are happy with yourself then stick you middle finger in the air and say  "SCREW IT! My happiness will not depend on others anymore. I'm happy because I  love who I am, I love my flaws, I love my imperfections, they make me  'ME' and  'ME' is pretty awesome.